Yesterday morning my mother passed away peacefully in a hospital in Las Vegas. She was taken to the hospital from the assisted living facility when mom had trouble getting her breath. She had pneumonia. I spoke with her the day before she passed and she sounded strong and clear minded. The last thing she said to me was "I love you and God loves you". She said her goodbyes that way the last year.
I have written about my mom in my blog(s) a few times. Our relationship was not calm but we did learn much from each other. It is just dawning on me that from now on I will be writing about her in the past tense.
My visit with her in September is even more important to me now. I am so glad I made the effort to spend a couple weeks with her and to be on the phone with her almost every day. We spoke for at least one hour every day. Mom kept telling me she was happy that I am living in this town and have such wonderful friends here.
Now this last picture of me and mom together in September will have a special place on my wall and in my heart.
~John Lennon
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Blessed Peace
No expectations. Easier said than done? Maybe. Goals are good; however, expectations are unhealthy.
The mind is a powerful tool. Use it to be healthy. Embrace the peace you achieve.
The mind is a powerful tool. Use it to be healthy. Embrace the peace you achieve.
The Hairs On My Chinny Chin Chin
Photo found on Google.
You know what I'm talking about. The annoying hair on the right side of the chin, pluck, it is gone, and then Poof! In a couple days you rub your chin and what the heck, that hair is already a half inch long.
Someone told me long ago that our hair stops growing as we get older. What planet did that person come from. My hair grows, my nails grow.
If I don't shave under my arms I could braid the hairs in two weeks time.
Same with the hair on my legs.
Just sharing some personal information. Aren't you glad you read this post?
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Riding In The Wind
Gads! I didn't have a bicycle for three months. Where did the time go?
I was riding a bike every day when I was living at the little hippie house.
Then when I moved to this apartment I didn't ride as often.
Then the bike was stolen.
I bought a used bike from a woman in town.
The tires wouldn't hold air.
The nice man in town who works on bicycles worked on my bike.
He changed the tires, changed the seat to a comfy one, and repaired the gears.
Wowzer! I went riding today.
Liking Me Some Bike Riding.
After I took this picture I saw the cords to lamps I added for more light when my friends come to play dominoes and cards on the round table. Oh well, at least the cords aren't hanging around on the floor to trip someone.
I was riding a bike every day when I was living at the little hippie house.
Then when I moved to this apartment I didn't ride as often.
Then the bike was stolen.
I bought a used bike from a woman in town.
The tires wouldn't hold air.
The nice man in town who works on bicycles worked on my bike.
He changed the tires, changed the seat to a comfy one, and repaired the gears.
Wowzer! I went riding today.
Liking Me Some Bike Riding.
After I took this picture I saw the cords to lamps I added for more light when my friends come to play dominoes and cards on the round table. Oh well, at least the cords aren't hanging around on the floor to trip someone.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Here, Turkey, Turkey
In my case, I should be calling Here, Chickie, Chickie. I am going to have the cousin to the turkey again this year. Roasting a turkey for one is silly. But a roasted chicken can be many meals for me.
I found some sage dressing that is gluten free. Fresh green beans cooked with bacon and onions. A baked sweet potato. Lots of leftovers, and then finally the bones will be in the slow cooker for a couple days to make soup stock.
C'mon, Cuz.
Huge blogland hugs to my dear blogging friends for which I am truly grateful.
I found some sage dressing that is gluten free. Fresh green beans cooked with bacon and onions. A baked sweet potato. Lots of leftovers, and then finally the bones will be in the slow cooker for a couple days to make soup stock.
C'mon, Cuz.
Huge blogland hugs to my dear blogging friends for which I am truly grateful.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Patron Saint Of Music
Ode For Saint Cecilia's Day is a contata composed by George Frideric Handel in 1739 based on the poem by English poet, John Dryden. The main theme is that music was a central force in the earth's creation. St. Cecilia is the patron saint of musicians. Cecilia is my name. CiCi is my nickname. Music has always been my rock. This is one of my favorites, read it and hear the celestial sounds.
From harmony, from heavenly harmony
This universal frame began.
When nature, underneath a heap
Of jarring atoms lay,
And could not heave her head.
The tuneful Voice, was heard from high,
Arise! Arise!
Arise ye more than dead!
Then cold, and hot, and moist, and dry,
In order to their stations leap!
And music's power obey!
And music's power obey!
From harmony, from heavenly harmony,
This universal frame began.
Through all the compass of the notes it ran,
The diapason closing full in man.
What passion cannot music raise, and quell?
When Jubal struck the chorded shell,
His listening brethren stood 'round.
And wondering on their faces fell,
To worship that celestial sound!
Less than a god they thought there could not dwell
Within the hollow of that shell
That spoke so sweetly and so well.
What passion cannot Music raise and quell?
The trumpet's loud clangour excites us to arms,
With shrill notes of anger and mortal alarms,
The double-double-double beat,
Of the thund'ring drum,
Cries hark! Hark! Cries hark the foes come!
Charge! Charge! Charge! Charge!
'Tis too late, 'tis too late to retreat!
Charge 'tis too late, too late to retreat!
The soft complaining flute
In dying notes discovers
The woes of hopeless lovers,
Whose dirge is whispered by the warbling lute.
Sharp violins proclaim,
Their jealous pangs,
And desperation!
Fury, frantic indignation!
Depth of pains, and height of passion,
For the fair disdainful dame!
But oh! what art can teach,
What human voice can reach
The sacred organ's praise?
Notes inspiring holy love,
Notes that wing their heavenly ways
To join the choirs above.
Orpheus could lead the savage race,
And trees uprooted left their place
Sequacious of the lyre:
But bright Cecilia raised the wonder higher:
When to her Organ vocal breath was given
An Angel heard, and straight appeared –
Mistaking Earth for Heaven.
As from the power of sacred lays
The spheres began to move,
And sung the great Creator's praise
To all the blest above;
So when the last and dreadful hour
This crumbling pageant shall devour,
The trumpet shall be heard on high,
The dead shall live, the living die,
And music shall untune the sky.
Carlo Saraceni
Saint Cecilia and the Angel
c. 1610 - Oil on canvas
Galleria Nazionale d'Arte Antica, Rome
From harmony, from heavenly harmony
This universal frame began.
When nature, underneath a heap
Of jarring atoms lay,
And could not heave her head.
The tuneful Voice, was heard from high,
Arise! Arise!
Arise ye more than dead!
Then cold, and hot, and moist, and dry,
In order to their stations leap!
And music's power obey!
And music's power obey!
From harmony, from heavenly harmony,
This universal frame began.
Through all the compass of the notes it ran,
The diapason closing full in man.
What passion cannot music raise, and quell?
When Jubal struck the chorded shell,
His listening brethren stood 'round.
And wondering on their faces fell,
To worship that celestial sound!
Less than a god they thought there could not dwell
Within the hollow of that shell
That spoke so sweetly and so well.
What passion cannot Music raise and quell?
The trumpet's loud clangour excites us to arms,
With shrill notes of anger and mortal alarms,
The double-double-double beat,
Of the thund'ring drum,
Cries hark! Hark! Cries hark the foes come!
Charge! Charge! Charge! Charge!
'Tis too late, 'tis too late to retreat!
Charge 'tis too late, too late to retreat!
The soft complaining flute
In dying notes discovers
The woes of hopeless lovers,
Whose dirge is whispered by the warbling lute.
Sharp violins proclaim,
Their jealous pangs,
And desperation!
Fury, frantic indignation!
Depth of pains, and height of passion,
For the fair disdainful dame!
But oh! what art can teach,
What human voice can reach
The sacred organ's praise?
Notes inspiring holy love,
Notes that wing their heavenly ways
To join the choirs above.
Orpheus could lead the savage race,
And trees uprooted left their place
Sequacious of the lyre:
But bright Cecilia raised the wonder higher:
When to her Organ vocal breath was given
An Angel heard, and straight appeared –
Mistaking Earth for Heaven.
As from the power of sacred lays
The spheres began to move,
And sung the great Creator's praise
To all the blest above;
So when the last and dreadful hour
This crumbling pageant shall devour,
The trumpet shall be heard on high,
The dead shall live, the living die,
And music shall untune the sky.
Carlo Saraceni
Saint Cecilia and the Angel
c. 1610 - Oil on canvas
Galleria Nazionale d'Arte Antica, Rome
Friday, November 16, 2012
Deal With It
The apartments I live in are HUD subsidized senior apartments. I live in an end unit. There are 16 units, small complex, and I am in #15. Been here six months now. The best thing about these places is the low rent. When I say LOW RENT, I mean really low. Because I don't have to pay gas, water, trash, it is like having twice as much money each month.
A few weeks ago a woman moved into #16. It has been empty since I moved in. This woman keeps her door open as do three other people in this building. There are 8 units in each building and now 4 of them keep their doors open in my building and their radios and TVs on high volume.
When I walk out my door, the woman across from me rushes to her door to talk to me. When I take out the trash, there she is. If I go out and stop to lock my place because I am going out for awhile, there she is. All the while her TV is blaring. Why can't she close her friggin' door? Maybe it annoying to me particularly because I don't have a TV, am not exposed to all the noise and confusion and when it is forced on me, it is irritating.
Her son-in-law is our Saturday mailperson, and he was helping at bingo one night a month ago, and told us she was moving in here, and told us not to tell her when he comes to deliver mail or she will find something for him to do. I didn't appreciate how true that was until she moved in here. This woman is needy. She knocks on peoples doors to ask for help all the time. Like, her refrigerator was too cold, would they adjust it for her. She wanted a flashlight. Couldn't find hers. Do I sound cranky? I guess I am. I miss the quiet on this end of the building. If I hooked up my huge speakers and listened to hard rock, the folks here would have a cow. So I just wear my headphones to watch Netflix or listen to music. I can't walk all over the place though. Maybe I need wireless headphones. Ha.
Writing this post is not meant to be a complaint, it is written to remind me that there are things in life I have to either change or adjust to, and how I go about doing that shows me what kind of person I am. I never did well in an environment where I had to listen to others on the phone or in group situations with several people talking at once. It was a struggle when I worked in office situations with cubicles for work spaces. Loud voices in other "cubies" would drown out the phone voices in my cubicle and give me a headache. I didn't last long in those jobs. I would quit, find something better, move on.
So this morning, as it is every morning, when I wake up and start making my coffee, I hear the newest neighbor on the phone, her door wide open, and remember that she is lonely. She wants attention. Each person who walks past her door is accosted. She may settle down some day after she has been here long enough. I want to remind myself what it is like to be new in town, new in an apartment building with all new residents. I am sorry to say that I cannot bring myself to befriend this woman, she is annoying to me, needy, demanding, and manipulating. I have already seen enough to have several red flags raised, which for me means I stay away from that kind of personality for my own good health. Whew, there, got that off my chest. I am in acceptance of the new situation and am able to retain my sanity and keep my life busy and happy.
A few weeks ago a woman moved into #16. It has been empty since I moved in. This woman keeps her door open as do three other people in this building. There are 8 units in each building and now 4 of them keep their doors open in my building and their radios and TVs on high volume.
When I walk out my door, the woman across from me rushes to her door to talk to me. When I take out the trash, there she is. If I go out and stop to lock my place because I am going out for awhile, there she is. All the while her TV is blaring. Why can't she close her friggin' door? Maybe it annoying to me particularly because I don't have a TV, am not exposed to all the noise and confusion and when it is forced on me, it is irritating.
Her son-in-law is our Saturday mailperson, and he was helping at bingo one night a month ago, and told us she was moving in here, and told us not to tell her when he comes to deliver mail or she will find something for him to do. I didn't appreciate how true that was until she moved in here. This woman is needy. She knocks on peoples doors to ask for help all the time. Like, her refrigerator was too cold, would they adjust it for her. She wanted a flashlight. Couldn't find hers. Do I sound cranky? I guess I am. I miss the quiet on this end of the building. If I hooked up my huge speakers and listened to hard rock, the folks here would have a cow. So I just wear my headphones to watch Netflix or listen to music. I can't walk all over the place though. Maybe I need wireless headphones. Ha.
Writing this post is not meant to be a complaint, it is written to remind me that there are things in life I have to either change or adjust to, and how I go about doing that shows me what kind of person I am. I never did well in an environment where I had to listen to others on the phone or in group situations with several people talking at once. It was a struggle when I worked in office situations with cubicles for work spaces. Loud voices in other "cubies" would drown out the phone voices in my cubicle and give me a headache. I didn't last long in those jobs. I would quit, find something better, move on.
So this morning, as it is every morning, when I wake up and start making my coffee, I hear the newest neighbor on the phone, her door wide open, and remember that she is lonely. She wants attention. Each person who walks past her door is accosted. She may settle down some day after she has been here long enough. I want to remind myself what it is like to be new in town, new in an apartment building with all new residents. I am sorry to say that I cannot bring myself to befriend this woman, she is annoying to me, needy, demanding, and manipulating. I have already seen enough to have several red flags raised, which for me means I stay away from that kind of personality for my own good health. Whew, there, got that off my chest. I am in acceptance of the new situation and am able to retain my sanity and keep my life busy and happy.
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